So tired
Sorry...there isn't much in this post other than a bit of a whine.
Lordy, yesterday was a rollercoaster. Tension in the morning, relief at hearing from him and from Guy, good time with the fam in the evening.
And now...
I miss my cat. I want to find her and hold her. She always let me hold her when I felt sad.
I miss Frankie.
I want Carl to call. I want to know he is okay. I don't know how to find him, and right now I have such a need to know all that all my kids are okay.
I want to fast-track the grieving process.
I want to feel better and get caught up on my work.
I want to believe Frankie is going to be okay, but I really don't know that he ever will. I believe he is where he needs to be, but I have no illusions.
I want to feel better.
Frustrating, isn't it, how you know in your logical mind that it would be nice to fast-track grief, but you can't make your emotional mind follow suit?
ReplyDeleteWould be nice, wouldn't it?
Of course if we could do that, it would be like pushing the fast-forward button on the VCR of life, which sounds suspiciously like a bad movie.
I hear you. I want to settle in myself. It's a hard road, but it's the price we pay. It's so hard, but I don't think either of us would trade the experience. And of course, "what doesn't kill us..."
ReplyDeleteI am sure it is hard for you. You didn't really get time to grieve your lost pet due to the drama, and now you have a second loss. I will light a candle for you, and send my good thoughts your way.
ReplyDeleteThinking about you...
ReplyDeleteI wished we lived closer. I would take you out for chocolate and either make you laugh or let you cry, or both. Hugs.
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