Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Yesterday's rollercoaster

Nobody really believed I was only going to do one post a day, right? Maybe I meant only one serious, analyzing-my-life post.

I may have said goodbye to Evan with dry eyes, but it did not last.

I came home, took a two-hour nap and then had a two-hour cry.

I realized that Evan has been using the entire time I have known him. I began to worry that much of what I know and love about him was made possible by the drug. Who will the rehab center send home to me? Will it be the kid I sent them?

I did find out that I may send Evan letters even during the first 14 days.

I also asked the social worker if the would send ME to see the rehab counselor a few times while he is gone. They said yes.


  1. just found your blog. good stuff! thanks for all the good work you are doing.

  2. I'm sorry this is happening. I totally understand about how his sobriety/being clean is not your priority.


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