Tuesday, February 21, 2006

No blubbering here

**It is important for the following to make sense to know that when in detox the pupils tend to dilate. When an addict takes a higher than usual does of opiate the pupils constrict, even to little pin points. In detox blood pressure and pulse also rise.**

This morning I took Evan to meet his social worker who is traveling with him to the rehab center. He wanted to leave early and get a breakfast sandwhich from McDonalds. While we were in the car waiting lane in the pale light of dawn he turned on the little car light and looked at himself in the mirror. "Wow. My pupils look really small. Do they look small to you?"


"I'm feeling sort of dizzy. Probably because I took my medications on an empty stomach."


I took his pulse (not an accurate count...just a general feel). I would describe it as "slow and steady."

Later we were waiting for the social worker and a somebody rough, tough and angry looking walked by. I said something about him being a scarey dude. Evan said, "Don't worry. I could take him for you. I'm not feeling any pain." I told him that I didn't think his coordination was up to defending me from attackers, but I appreciated the offer.

When the social worker showed up I told her, out of Evan's hearing, that his pupils were small, his pulse was slow and she would not have to deal with ANY detox symptoms AT ALL. As Evan came up I started to tell her that technically his next dose time for his tranquilizer was 10:00am, but... Evan interrupted me, "But I only have to take that if I want to." I nodded and said, "That's right. I don't think he is going to need it."

I gave him a hug and with dry eyes and sent him on his way.


  1. I so hope it works for him. I hate losing kids that may be salvageable.

  2. I have been reading your post. You are such a wonderful caring women. I know I do not not personally know you but I am so proud of you for opening up your home to so many. You truely are an angel for doing this. Such an inspriation. I will continue to "stalk" your blog for more updates on how everyone is.

    Thanks for sharing your blog so I can read it and get my daily dose.



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