Evan and Old Posts

The thing about having a blog is that it makes it much more difficult to lie to yourself about the past. I went back and read the posts I wrote during the last couple of months that Evan was here.

It wasn't easy.

I think it will be a little easier in some ways. When Evan moves out in August he will only be moving 30 miles away, not over an ocean. I am no longer worried that I am going to loose him. He will be in a basement-level bedroom, has his own car, and may come and go as he likes.

It won't be easy though.

I wonder if anyone is asking why I would agree to do it, why we were all so quick to agree that if Evan needs to come back he may. Aside from the simple fact that this is what we do, Evan is now part of the family. End of explanation.

While I was strolling down memory lane I came across quite a few posts that I did not publish. Apparently at the time I thought they were unfinished, but now I have no idea what I thought should be added to them. I'll probably publish them soon. I'm not going to change the publication date, so those of you would read by surfing and not via a reader may not see them. They weren't essential to the "plot line." Mostly they are reflective posts.

I am still hoping that by calming Evan down, letting him know he is not trapped, and trying to give him a new way of looking at everything that he will work everything out at Grandma's. I told this to Hubby and he chuckled.

At least he didn't howl with laughter.