Saturday, April 18, 2009

Filled Up (update)

I still find myself dwelling on the question of whether there will be another kid.

The thought that there might not be makes me feel sad.

And I also have this strong sense of having reached capacity, and it is little things, like my brain has only so many slots for remembering birth dates and they are all filled up.

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Update: this is on my mind because Evan was here for Easter and we were talking about not having heard from David since his birthday and Evan said, "You remember when my birthday is, right?"

And I said, "September! Definitely September."

Evan said, "You don't remember what day it is?"

"Well, Gary's birthday is in September and I get the dates mixed up."

Gary was there and said that his was on whatever day it is one, and then I was almost positive that I remembered Evan's, and I said the date and was very relieved I was right.

And now I can't remember which is which again.

3 comments:

  1. I love when people make posts like this explaining how their thoughts and emotions work. Being full makes sense to me, especially as Brian's getting older. I guess you have through Gary to decide whether you want to be dealing with things like licensing and respite still.

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  2. What I think will happen is this. We will need to get licensed just in May/June of 2011 because Gary won't be ready to leave before then. Brian graduates in May of 2012.

    I think it will all come down to whether the agency shows up with a kid we can't say no to.

    And I suspect we will find it easier to say no.

    I'll let you know in a few years.

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  3. Full up. I like it as an explanation. Good thing when it came to the actual date you got it right. Whew.

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